Blackness at the beginning of the year is the same as the last day of last year: Tiring. It takes a lot of effort to run those personal mental simulations in one’s head day after day, hour after hour, minute by minute. The big acts of racism is actually easier to spot… the ones you can see a mile away. It’s the micro-transgressions we have trouble with. Ethereal. Ghostly. “Did that actually HAPPEN?” “They didn’t do what I think they did, did they?” “Am I being overly sensitive?” “And if so, what do I do about it?” “Do I cash in and use the permanent chip that’s firmly placed on my shoulder?” Or wait for the REALLY big racial infringement that’s bound to happen somewhere down the road? As I stated earlier: That shit’s TIRING. Stay strong sister. Do it for your baby, and for the best of us, the worst of us and the rest of us.